Blog of The Beeze

it itches! it burns!

2006-07-24T20:32:00.000-07:00

good LORD!! i don't think i've ever had an eye infection this bad. i don't know if it's allergies, pink eye, or what. pretty sure it's a viral infection, which fuckin blows. my eyes are bloodshot and they itch like fuck!! it's ridiculous....this had better get better or i'm gonna fuckin lose it.

greatest class EVER

2006-04-22T12:09:00.000-07:00

okay, it's official, my life is complete. next fall, one of my all time favorite profs is teaching a course on england and tolkien mythology. i could die of happiness. yes, taking this class will be the nerdiest thing i will probably ever do in my life, but who cares?! when will i get another opportunity like this! and the best part is, it fits with latvian, which starts later than it ever has before! and the class is a history class so it goes towards my major! life is AWESOME!! other than that, i am home this weekend for....certain reasons....and i'm about to go sit outside and work on my latvian presentation and play with da doggy. following that will be studying for the history midterm next week, aka memorizing as much info about wwI as humanly possible :) joy.

spring quarter

2006-03-27T13:12:00.000-08:00

WOO. it's finally here! spring quarter! that wonderful time of year where it manages to be sunny and warm every day and there are bbq's and classes are easy and, in general, LIFE ROCKS! finished two of my classes already. my latvian class is in clark, the rotc building. kinda intimidating walking in there....but oh well. my history professor has some kind of speech...thing, kinda like tourette's, but not swear words, just shouting. i dunno, at first i didn't think i could handle it or understand him, but towards the end of class i realized that he is just a sweet old man who cares passionately about world war I. so i'm keeping the class, i like it. haven't had the latvian lit class yet. it's just me, my brother, and a girl in my other latvian class. HA. my social life is being throttled. two of my three classes have under 8 people in them. wow. it's erally nice outisde. slightly hazy, but i was out tanning for about 20 minutes. crap...i need to find a quote for chapter, hm....i guess i'll go do that now. yay for spring!

the world's greatest

2006-03-23T00:12:00.000-08:00

yes, it's cocky, i can deal with that. but hell, i deserve it! grades for winter quarter are as follows and i quote "art history: 3.9, latvian: 3.9, history: 3.8." tell me those aren't the most beautiful grades you have ever seen! i worked my ass off and it FINALLY paid off. granted, what i really wanted in latvian was a 4.0, but that's what i get for not memorizing the vocab :( hehe. so, i just thought i'd revel in my glory and let the world know what a champ i am. wish me luck for spring quarter........

2006-03-09T23:58:00.000-08:00

i've decided to write down the things that bug me the most RIGHT NOW...

-the sound of a certain person chewing gum
-the sound of chewing in general
-having two finals on monday
-feeling alone
-i think i have a paper cut on the corner of my mouth and it stings
-not making any progress in studying
-feeling like i've been cut out of his life
-memories
-overactive imagination
-people IMing me too much
-people not IMing me at all
-feeling the way i do
-being tired
-not having any food at the house
-no peanut butter
-pet peeves, EVERY SINGLE ONE
-the glory of finals week

school sucks

2006-02-09T12:56:00.000-08:00

i am now a firm believer (even moreso than before) that school sucks. it just sucks. i got a 2.7 on my history midterm, which officially mean life now sucks, because i'm am being pulverized by my classes. SIGH. tomorrow's the dance, so i guess i have something to look forward to. rīt man bušu mazs kontrodarbs par latviju. so i have to study for that :-p i still have 15 minutes before art history section and i am SOOOO bored. i really should be catching up on my reading, because i've fallen quite behind. don't know how it even happened, because i've been great all quarter. i guess a took a pretty hard hit on the history midterm. really rocked my confidence. sometimes i wish i could give up. i wish it were that easy for me to just quit, but i can't. i know i can pull through this, i just can find the strength to do so now. i know it's there, i just need to find it....

multi-tasking

2006-02-02T22:01:00.000-08:00

on the phone with ma, online with little flower, and studying furiously for art history......i am the master of multi-tasking......okay, so i'm really not. i suck at studying. bottom line. i think i'm doomed for this midterm. it's the dates that really screw you over, stupid chronology. guh, well...i guess i still have a good two hours of studying still left in me and i'm charged up with caffeine so let's get to it!!

more studying

2006-01-31T14:52:00.001-08:00

ah! so much to do! so little time! i shall begin with now...i have a midterm in art history this friday, and i barely know the slides, so i really need to get on that. tonight is the DU feed for mr. greek, but i can't go :( it is a good excuse though. brolen and i are going to a rock climbing class to get our belaying certifications. i'm so excited! this means that we can go rock climbing together, and the certification is good for a whole year! woohoo! maybe now i'll actually have a chance at getting in shape with all the climbing. SIGH. one can only hope. anywho, i also have latvian to do tonight, which shouldn't take very long. my worries lie within art history mainly, so off i go!

thinking in circles

2006-01-24T23:31:00.000-08:00

yeah, that's kinda where i'm at right now. don't really know what to do about it. thank goodness i have this history midterm to study for, otherwise i might fry my brain or worse, not do anything! so i've just been sitting and relearning all about the rise and fall of rome, glorious fun indeed. okay, now i go back to my own "special hell, reserved for child molesters and people who talk at the theater" (it's from Firefly)

the things we learn

2006-01-19T01:28:00.000-08:00

meriadoc......that's it :)

school is back again

2006-01-16T17:47:00.000-08:00

well well well, here i am at the start (sort of) of yet another quarter at UW. guh, i'm in the middle of writing a paper for my medieval history class. can i just say that i suck at writing? so best of luck to me in that. ma taught me how to crochet over the weekend, so while everyone else was up having a blast in whistler, i was at home doing that :-/ missed a good party at andy's apartment too, which made me even more sad. i feel like my life has taken somewhat of a downward turn. i've been out twice this quarter, which was great, but as far as real adventures go, i'm lacking. maybe things will turn up. one can only hope. i wish we all talked in third person. don't you think it would make life a bit more interesting? sure it might feel detached and a tad snobbish, but it's third person! how much more awesome can you get?! so...other than the AH quiz i have tomorrow, and this bitch of a paper, and CC....i have nothing else to do tonight. woohoo! better get to work :)

here we go again

2005-12-19T00:25:00.000-08:00

cousing taage has convinced me that i need to keep writing in this thing because i haven't for awhile. andy just left earlier tonight for home (england). i miss him already! went to the latvian advent church service tonight. pretty cool now that i can vaguely understand some of what's going on. on that fabulous note, i passed physics!!! got a 2.7 in the class, which is roughly a B-, which is better than the 2.3 i thought i was gonna get. so basically i'm ecstatic is what i'm trying to say. tomorrow (or i guess later today) i might go make piragi with omi, yay! i left my ring at andy's, so i have to get that sometime this week. i need that ring. i feel like part of my soul is missing. bleh. i am now very tired, but in the morning, i shall work out with my sister! and i shall work out the next morning! and the next! and the next! and i shall become strong again and in shape! woohoo, time to start making up for all the not-working out that i did this quarter!! happy holidays to all!

my punishment

2005-11-21T13:50:00.000-08:00

i think God is punishing me for being a woman. somehow, someway, i have done something wrong, yet again. evil evil cramps. i decided to FORGET to take advil today, which is what i usually do on the first day, and this is what i get. i'm not even done with class yet, i still have another hour and a half lecture that i don't know how the hell i'm gonna stay awake through. i should be studying for my giant psych test that i have tomorrow. good call breezy. off i go!

rush

2005-09-22T11:22:00.000-07:00

wow, it's finally over. i mean, it's been over for two days, but still, you get what i'm saying. rush was fun. i met a lot of great girls and we got an AMAZING pledge class, which rocks. right now i'm just waiting for lunch to be ready....7 more minutes! ma's coming with brolen and nato to take me to the zoo in a little bit. i feel bad, cuz that means i'll be missing canoeing with my rosebuddy :( hopefully i'll be able to make it up to her. so last night was first night out. it was really fun. my rosebud didn't drink and neither did i, which was a good thing. so we showed the freshmen around the greek system and took them to some parties. there wasn't a lot going on that night, which i guess was a good thing, because we don't want to freak them out with a triad on their first night out. but enough about that. school starts in a week! less than a week! balls balls balls, hahahah. i got my pictures developed. food time!!

birthday birthday birthday!!!

2005-08-13T13:21:00.000-07:00

woohoo! who's 19? I'M 19!! what, what?! okay, so granted that it's a pretty useless age unless you live in canada, it's still really cool! my birthday was on thursday, the 11th, and it was so much fun. scott threw this huge party at alki and literally everyone from highschool was there. so i'm really glad i went, cuz i got to see all my friends. after that, i went to go see charlie and the chocolate factory again, which is a fabulous movie. i opened my presents last night (sweet!) and had my birthday breakfast this morning. haha, me ma didn't have time to bake a cake yet, so last night, the cake understudy was a blob of chocolate frosting with a candle stuck in it......delicious. so now i'm just sweating my brains out outside in my yard trying desperately to get rid of these wonderful guard suit tan lines :) i figure i've already been inside for too long, can't miss that afternoon sun!

recording

2005-08-08T00:02:00.000-07:00

well here i am....past midnight.....sitting on my bedroom floor. any guesses? i've decided that i hate my stereo because it always skips my cds. thus, i have decided to make a tape. but this is not just any tape, oh no, this is a lord of the rings mix tape. pretty sweet, eh? so i've been sitting on my floor for a little over a half hour picking out my favorite songs (mostly the relaxing ones [to sleep to]) and recording them on my sister's ghetto boombox, (which is, i swear, about 10 years old) because, as i've said before, my stereo is unreliable when it comes to playing cds. one of the songs is over 10 minutes long!! so the sound quality isn't that great, but who cares? oh man, i work a FULL day today. 8:15-7:30, and i could've sworn i heard my brother say there's a women's open game tonight.....WOOHOO!!!! jeez, this song is long, only 8 minutes in. ah, birthday's in 3 days, mwahahaha. 19 is a worthless age. just one more step on that ladder into true adulthood.....21.....haha. not that i really care, i'm glad i'm getting a year older. i still can't believe i'm gonna be a sophomore, it's so bizarre. anyways, now i'm just spouting nonsense because i'm waiting for this tape to finish. there's still two more songs to go, and this long one isn't finished yet! i'm only teaching two classes during lessons this session. originally i wasn't teaching (due to a communication error on my part), but then anne filled more classes and gave me a sea otter 2 and an orca 2 at the very end of lessons. so it's gonna be pretty sweet with only two classes to teach every day, rather than the usual 4. oh yeah! travis and jen got married last night!! how exciting! we went to the wedding and everything! i'm so happy for both of them, it was a beautiful ceremony. the reception was tight. get this, apparently the guy who was the event planner for my cousin's wedding party was one of travis' frat brothers, and he was at the wedding! how bizarre is that?! so i got a chance to talk to him, he was pretty cool. anyways, this one song is FINALLY ending! thank the lord. now only two more. oh wait.....that REALLY long song was actually two songs, hahahahaha. i thought it was extra long. well now only one song left! i went to my little bro's soccer game today. i saw mary there and we went and got coffee. it was so great talking to her again, i hadn't seen her for ages! ugh, my knee just cracked. it feels good, but i know it's bad for me....uh-oh.......:) so this weekend is our pc retreat for the house, but there's also a waterpolo game this saturday night, which i'm not going to miss. i think it's possible to go to the retreat, leave for the game, and then come back. somehow, i don't think my mom will buy into this possibility. i hope the weather's nice tomorrow. and by nice i mean mid-high 70ish. none of this 90-degree-i-want-to-lock-myself-in-a-freezer weather. that stuff is ridiculous, but, interestingly enough, is the only time i actually enjoy the inevitable station 13 mist. for those of you that don't know, i work at a pool, and station 13 is right by some foutains, and EVERY DAY the wind is blowing just so, so that the mist comes over to attack the poor soul at station 13. boo. oh well. we start a new schedule tomorrow, no more lunches! that's like an extra half hour every day or something. awesome...ah! tape's done. g'night!

eventful weekend

2005-07-17T22:38:00.000-07:00

awesome. all in all, i'd have to say this was a fantastic weekend. my grandparents (and cousin) are visiting from out of town. saturday night was my other cousin's wedding party at emerald downs. it was so fun being there and getting to hang out with the fam. then today we went over to my aunt's house to watch lana open up some of her wedding gifts. then grandma came over and we spent the day together, which was mostly laying out in the sun. then i spent 6 hours playing fable. lord, that is an ADDICTING GAME. no joke. i got up once to pee and once for dinner. that was it...can't wait to play it tomorrow! haha, too bad i think me ma's gonna unplug the xbox cuz i was on it all day. but she did highlight my hair, so now the roots aren't nasty....just ridiculously blonde. ah, lessons start up again tomorrow for the second week of the session. that means i have to get there early so i can go over what i need to teach the kids :) i love my job.

my summer thus far

2005-07-10T23:26:00.000-07:00

well i can't say summer has been too terribly exciting. working at hmac rocks. the people there are cool, and i have fun teaching lessons and hanging out during breaks. other than that, i sit around, play xbox (fable at the moment), and eat. i occasionally do something social, like call someone.....hahahah, great summer, eh? oh well, i still consider this the beginning of summer. maybe it's because we haven't quite hit the "good" weather yet. boo, i dislike rain in the summer when you have to stand outside and guard in it...unless it's warm, then it's fun, like a tropical storm...ah, puerto rico, how i miss you....

work work work

2005-06-23T21:22:00.000-07:00

not that i'm complaining, because i am definitely NOT. i've been working this past week. and i LOVE it! lifeguarding is way fun. i really like watching all the little kids running around and having so much fun. makes me wish i was one of them again. and i get to be out in the sun, which is a plus. anyways, tomorrow i get my first paycheck EVER!!! woohoo!!! so now i'm bored again. i'll probably end up playing the sims along with my pint of ice cream. cookie dough. ahh..........

FINALS

2005-06-03T14:30:00.000-07:00

guh. so here i am, yet again, cramming like crazy for finals. it's kind of thrilling, while at the same time absolutely revolting. SYR is tonight, fun fun! it'll be a good relaxation break from all this math crap. christina's asleep in the room now, so i'm just sitting here with my headphones on listening to enya and trying to do some practice exams. i really really dislike school right now. although i guess i am kind of glad that i have NO MORE CLASSES!! woohoo!! no more math classes ever again! that is, unless i figure out my major and decide that i need more....grrr....still gotta worry about that whole major thing. bah. school is trouble with a capital T. oh well, i suppose i'm getting good use out of it. things like this are so trivial anyways. who's gonna remember 10 years down the road whether or not you got an A on your calculus final? hell, I'M not even gonna care 10 minutes after i'm done! i'll just be done! still got the celtic history final on wednesday. the next three days are going to be non stop reading and writing, because i KNOW i can nail that bitch. oh watch me go....

speaking of losing...

2005-05-17T21:46:00.000-07:00

well fuck me. this REALLY sucks. we lost our softball game today, which means we're out of the playoffs. i played super shitty, so i've been in a pretty bad mood for most of the day :( gd...i really hate losing. i now turn to my math midterm and history paper for consolation. life is very stressful right now and sometimes i wish i could just disappear and not have to deal with it. guh. i guess that's what "makes life interesting," eh? i'm not a quitter, but now feels like one of those times when i almost wish i was.
mom wants me to go home tomorrow. i want to see logan in mr. kr, but if i go, that means i'm throwing away about 2-3 hours of valuable study time. and yeah, people say 'you can study in the car,' but who, honestly, can write a paper OR study for a math midterm in a car?? NOT ME. blegh........college has turned into late nights of studying and very poor sleeping patterns. just gotta make it till friday and i'm golden. ah friday......

events put in motion

2005-04-28T20:39:00.000-07:00

you know what my favorite part of life is? desperately putting everything on the line and LOSING. yes, losing. i am a loser, i lost. i lost the DU court. it's my fault. the chi o girl was simply better than me. i mean, she was really good and basically kicked ass. so whatev. everyone's really pissed about it, because this meant that chi o's have won the whole court. and i understand that girls want our house to win, and other people were like "this is bullshit!" but i just can't take it. i threw my song together in about 5 minutes, and i was nervous as all hell, AND made a complete ass of myself. i don't do well with anything other than first. i hate life. school sucks, i blew it for the house at the court, and now i have a cocktail to go to and i don't know anyone there. i hate life.

wednesday nights

2005-04-27T22:43:00.000-07:00

le sigh.....here i am, 10:45 on a wednesday night, rewriting my history paper. damn, i am a good student......a good student who's about to go out in about 15 minutes! woohoo!!!! paper's not due till friday, so i got some time, and i think it's lookin pretty good as it is. so right now we're doin DU's court. i feel bad, cuz liz, ashley, and i were nominated as the house reps, but they only require one, and i've already done chi psi court, but liz says that because i did the fashion show that i was the house rep. i wanted her to do it, but she said she didn't want to, and i understand, but i feel bad, because i've already had my chance :( ah, sorority drama. but anywho, tomorrow night's karaoke and if we win that, we win the court! awesome possum!

school sucks

2005-04-17T23:59:00.000-07:00

boooooooooo, i REALLY hate school. math is killing me right now. i have a midterm on thursday, along with my celtic history midterm. holy crap, i have so much to do and NO time with which to do it in. we just bid christina to agd's on thursday and now she's my roommate! i'm really excited and everybody here loves her so it's all workin out just great! i still hate school, so nothing can make me happy about that. anyways, the bottom line is, school is horrible, quit while your ahead, unless you're not a quitter (ie: me) and then you just have to suffer through it and trust the fact that when it's all over, you'll be a lot wiser and a lot cooler. lord, i hope it happens to me. i almost had a nervous breakdown today and it's all because of stupid school. man, and i still need to tone up for our "rockers, rappers, and groupies" spring dance. i'm gonna be gwen stefani. so i REALLY need to, as fabish would say, "get serious" about it.

drivin around

2005-03-31T11:06:00.000-08:00

well....what a night I had. everything was fine, and i was getting ready to go to bed after doing some math homework when suddenly my phone rings. lo and behold, it is a very dear friend of mine who had been "doing some stuff" with some other friends in a car and they didn't feel they were 'with it' enough to drive around and find a parking spot. so i go out to find them in my pink polka dot pajama pants. thank goodness it was really late (12:30am) because i look like i got dressed in the dark. anyways, i find them, we drive around for an hour and they are just giggling their heads off. it really was entertaining actually. anyways, we ended up parking pretty illegally about 50ft from where i first got them. and it was the spot where they had found the car anyways, so all that driving for nothing, haha. oh well. didn't get to bed until about 2ish. so thanks for the wonderful night, girls :) it's what i'm good for

bring on the rain

2005-03-29T14:43:00.000-08:00

wow, i was just caught in one of the most massive rain explosions ever! before my math section today i was waiting downstairs to go to class and i noticed a few raindrops forming. so i ran upstairs to get a jacket and i, as an afterthought, grabbed my umbrella. good call. by the time i got to balmer/mackenzie, it was comin down! it was like a million little balls of ice and water hurling themselves at us. by the time i got to my class at bagley, my jeans were soaked all the way up to the pockets! absolute insanity, and yet, strangley comforting. it's been awhile since it's rained that hard, and i rarely get caught in it, so it was kinda cool. anyways, now i'm doing some arts and crafts and trying to get my shit organized for some philanthropies coming up!

movin day

2005-03-27T19:23:00.000-08:00

woohoo!! i am officially moved into my new room! well i guess not officially, cuz i'm using another closet and i'm going to be sharing with sarah if we get a cob. i was really dreading coming up here today. the entire family [minus taage :( ] was over at our house for easter from 12-3. it was really fun havin everyone together. ah, good times....anyways, i was really peeved about going back to school, but now that i'm back in the house, i'm really excited. not for school, but for living up here. once the weather improves, this quarter will be kick ass. yes i said kick ass. we're good like that. ahahhahahahhahaah, nads, hahahahhahaa. you know i'm talkin to you.

booooooo

2005-03-24T20:11:00.000-08:00

wow. probably one of the more disappointing basketball games i have ever watched. i can't believe we lost to louisville. man, we were on a roll. ps-our defense took, like, a fucking paid vacation during that game. if i had a dollar for everytime we doubled teamed the dude with the ball and left a man unguarded under the net.....i'd have like $6, but still!! ridiculous!! absolutely ridiculous. but i know the guys all tried really hard, we just didn't have it together today. and the refs decided to call every single fould known to man and half our team had 3 fouls on em, hahaha. bah. i'm installing the sims 2 on my laptop now, cuz logan's on the other computer. meh. just wasting time...i can't believe we lost......

grading time

2005-03-21T23:08:00.000-08:00

bullshit! absolute bullshit!! 3.4s all across the board for grades this quarter. it's ridiculous. allow me to explain. i'm very happy with my math 3.4, because i figure that's an excellent grade for me to get in calculus, considering i've never taken it before AND it's in college. my anthro 3.4 really should have been about a 3.2, so that's tight. my astro 3.4.....that's where the problem lies, my friend. i cannot believe i got that low of a grade in that class. i had to at least have gotten a 3.7, especially if they curved it!! so maybe they didn't curve it as much as i had hoped....and they ended up curving anthro...unless i got a really good paper grade....hold on....hm. it appears that i actually could have legitimately earned that 3.4 in anthro if i had gotten a 100% on my paper and the extra 14/15 TA points available. incredible. college never ceases to amaze me. but i'm still pissed about astro. cum gpa is now at a 3.46, so bloody close to a 3.5. i have just dropped my 3 credit class from next quarter cuz i'm planning to 4.0 at least 2 of my classes (i consider it impossible to 4.0 math). this had better work.
anyways, i'm quite enjoying my spring break other than that minor grade slip. i've been watching movies all day every day and ending the day with this: sitting on my laptop in my bed talking to people online. hm...i suppose i could be doing something more productive, like losing weight, tonight muscles, working out...can you guess what's on my mind? ugh, went swimsuit shopping today. naturally, went through the whole "i hate my body so i'm going to be pissy the rest of the day." it's tough. SIGH. i've had a lot of those lately. i wonder what it means?

two down, one to go

2005-03-14T21:52:00.000-08:00

i'm pushing through, step by step. i'd say my astronomy final went fairly well today. there were only a few problems i didn't know. spent the afternoon in the quad. wow, if you need a way to waste a few good hours of studying, go to the quad. i managed to use up 2 of my studying hours in that place today. after my final at 8:30 this morning, i went on a quick run down to the burke-gillman trail and back up through campus. this was followed by lunch with my good friend, mary, who i never see on campus and yet seemed to have run into her three times in the past 24 hours. she bought me lunch (gotta love those dorm friends with extra $$ on their husky cards), which was totally great of her. both of our brothers made the kentridge jv soccer team, as freshmen!! i'm so proud...anyways, tangent, back to my story, after lunch i met up with christina at mcmahon and we went to "study" in the quad. yeah right. spent two hours there and saw david and derek, awesome. then we saw max and he sat down to chat with us, and then we saw chris victoria and he came and sat with us and we spent awhile reminiscing about highschool. at the end of the wonderful afternoon in the quad, christina bought us all smoothies ($$), which was ALSO totally awesome. then i walked back to the house, had dinner, went to an anthro review session, ice cream with liz and jenna, and now i'm back here. and can you guess what i'm doing now?? NOT STUDYING FOR ANTHRO, which is what i should be doing, but no....i can't handle that...shit. i'm going to be spending the entire day tomorrow studying for my 8:30 final, my last final of this hellish winter quarter! woohoo!!!!!!

2005-03-13T18:28:00.000-08:00

sisters

my inspiration

2005-03-13T18:26:00.000-08:00

i owe this wonderful blog page to my sister, natalie. i saw hers a little while ago, and then i saw my cousins pages, and i got to thinking...."hm, maybe I should get one of these." thus, here i am today, writing about the nonsense in my life and posting pictures. pictures like this one of me and my darling older sister, natalya :)

here i am!

2005-03-13T17:31:00.000-08:00

well here i am. after a mere 45 minutes of trying to figure out how to work this damn this, i've managed to get it! i was having problems with the pictures. spent time in the quad today, almost 2 hours, so i hope i got some sun. ran into tristan, we sat and talked for awhile, no...we sat and he made fun of me for awhile. haha, it was good to talk to him again though. i'm getting ready to go down to dinner at the moment. i think we're having some sort of pasta?? it's questionable, to be sure. so after dinner i'm thinkin about inviting fabish and acomb over to study for our astronomy final tomorrow morning! 8:30am! these people are ridiculous. but oh well, i should do fine.